I don't think I'd ever want to know when (if I could know) I was going to die or how because I know for a fact I'd obsess over it, making my last days miserable. Though if it were possible for someone to know, I would like for them to tell someone else so that when the time came, I would not be left alone. That scares me.... I do not want to die alone even if that person were not that close to me, just someone would make all the difference in the world.
And, if it is possible, and I believe it is, after I pass on I will be coming back to haunt my ex (fuck you asshole!) for all the hateful evil things he's done to me. For whatever reason, and I've thought about this for many many years, even before our divorce, I somehow believe that I will die before him....... strange is it not?
- with the pricking of my thumbs,
something wicked this way comes
Some-one once said to me that we all come into this world alone and we leave it alone. She obviously had a slender grasp of biology, because no one ever came into the world alone!
ReplyDeleteWe are social creatures, we need each other. I too fear being alone. I fear living alone & dying alone. Dying alone is an especially horrible & sad idea. But I remember that thoughout my life, when I have been ill, my friends & family have been there for me. I have no reason to think they would desert me in death. Loneliness is a hell of a thing. It creeps into every corner of our lives, it can even blight our futures, making them dark and foreboding. Crushed by loneliness in life, we anticipate it in death.